MIXED BAG

The whole day could be summarized by this picture...SUNSET...(ha dont mistake me for a pessimist!!!) darkening yet beautiful and colourful...it was a day when u feel like life is really a rainbow..all moments with a different shade...

The morning began with me and my 2 colleagues cursing ourselves all the way throught the 12 km ride to the referral hospital;but we were so rejoiced to see that the medical officer was not one of those sadist kinds who believe that their very own existence is to trouble students...He laughed and joked with us all through the time making remarks about the indian system of education(to be specific MED SCHOOL LIFE)..what he said was difficult to digest but nevertheless the truth..which of course is a never ending list to mention....

Then came the darker shade..My never ending queue at the REGIONAL TRANSPORT OFFICE..for my 4 wheeler liscence..As an audit officer's daughter i have never had to wait in queues..i always have ha dthe privelege to dodge hundreds and stand among the first few..but today i was there standing..even with the "sifarish" i spent whole 2 and half hours which ended up in a frustrated and famished looking face on my "smart card"(that's referring to the lisensce)..and to top it poured so heavily that i was drenched inspite of my raincoat..

After hurdling past the strong winds when i finally reached home i chose to sleep it off..Just when i thought the day was cruel to me.,something happened to make me smile..I met my old bio tution teacher..DR. DJ MOHAN..a very sensitive and brilliant man..dedicated scientist..he was so happy to see me and the honour that he gave me before his new students was so flattering.. even the institute head gave me a warm welcome..I felt on cloud nine and no wonder i was brimming from ear to ear the whole way back..Atleast i was proud about something..an image which made me among the few in people's good books...

You guys must be wondering what was so different that happened today??i have an answer..today was no new a day from the usual "mixed bag" day where something good and something bad happens to you..but its upto you whether you choose to stamp the day as good or bad trying to balance amongst the happenings of the day..!!!then its easy for you to frown or smile...

As for me i chose a diplomatic way out!!! giving equal stress to both my frowning and smiling muscles..:))))

LIGHT FROM GOD

It was just like any other evening;one would expect in mid june...humid and tiring...
but something just changed it...the sweet smell of earth..Yes it was the first full fledged rain that ahmedabad was going to witness...!!!
And we bored interns were so thrilled that we kept all our tonnes of books and hundreds of worries aside... we reached on our college terracein no time to get ourselves drenched in the water pouring from heaven(well i am sure all good tings come from there!!!)
No of us could guess that it would be such a wonderful experience..all of us washing away our pains,worries,sorrows,etc with every single droplet that trickled down our body...Finally releived that the scorching heat is not going to trouble us for some days aleast..(and of course if it rains cats and dogs then it would lead to water logging which would mean no clinics and no work!!!)
And then suddenly there was a shriek.."Aaaaaaa amma...". everyone turned around,except for me;who of course was on the ground..yes i was struck with a lightening...it was painful for quite some time..and the trauma has not left my mental territory yet..(i jittered the whole ride back to home with every single glimpse of light!!!)
It was the first time that ligthening had struck me..And i began to think why???(aah my curious soul...)there were many who had experienced the struck but i was affected the most..And thank GOD that the matter was not so traumatic..The whole way back i was accompanied by my two friends and one invisible strength..GOD(so i believe;because the sky must have glittered umpteen number of times)..i kept chanting "hare krishna" the whole way until i reached home..while doing so tears trickled down my eyes..whether i was more happy with the fact that i was not hurt badly or sad that why i was the chosen one;i could not figure out..
But one thing which i realised was that every single incident that happens has a meaning behind it..like a code,which we have to decipher..its not important whether it was a good or bad experience,each moment teaches you something..its like a key to each question life places before you...
I dont know yet what message was hidden for me..but yes i know that from now on i know where to find a way out if i get lost in the dark...:)))
I am sure you all might also have found or will find answers to many riddles within the spur of moment;you just have to keep your eyes and mind open...

SAVE A LIFE....

Donate blood/heart/eyes... etc and save a life...Well that's the slogans u might find on many transport systems,walls or practically anywhere...
Being a doctor it goes unsaid that it must tbe one of my primal duties to make a starting step towards it..And i did just that on 10th of june by donating 300 ml of my blood..(a meagre amount to start with)..I dont know how much my fat laden organs might be useful to anyone but yes i have decided to donate them when i die..
So why did i decide to write about it?? i mean there is enough of awareness..hahahaha,i laugh at the sentence because there were many people sceptical about donating blood,needless to say the beginners...Even i was one of them..yes i donated blood for the very first time and took enough pride to be bold about the whole procedure...and the technicians were giving my example as well of those of who had donated umpteen number of times..
What does it take to donate blood?? just few minutes,lots of energy,motivation and a selfless heart...i dont know for how long health will permit me to lend a helping hand to the needy but i know that till i can i will...after all to bring a smile on someone's face or give a pulse to dying is far more priceless than any other commodity..And that's precisely the reason i plunged into the world of medicine...
My question is to those people who think that there are hundreds of people donating blood,what difference would it make if i dont?? Well friends if every cloud were to think so i guess we would have famished to death eons ago...And this hesitation doesnt stop here it follows everywhere we go...we never seem to take a step on our own unless it has become a trend..Why are we so apprehensive about doing soemthing that is right?? so friends its high time we keep thinking that there are hundreds of people to perform an act and procrastinating...and also being selfish as to not let go of a few ounces of blood of us atleast once a year....
As they say what goes around,comes around...so spread a smile,save a life and it might reflect back....

MY NEW HOME

Its like a feeling the mamma bird gets when she makes a nest for her little ones..well not that i am building one house for my kids(i dont have any) but it was exciting...
4th of june was the "vastu" a house warming ritual for my new house...its not a very big one but yes more spacious than the present one...that whole day was special..since i never had witnessed the ritual so carefully....
it began with offerings and prayers to GOD and new hopes and dreams...
And then all friends and well wishers joining in our bliss...
The day was hectic but it brought all of us closer as a family...responsibilties,happiness,worries all packaged together...and still we all were welcoming the new experience whole heartedly..
The shifting has still to be done,which of course would mean a whole lot of work but yes we are looking forward to it...
It also means we have to leave behind our present house's friends and neighbours but what i see is i shall be meeting new people and the old ones will still be special...
There are many memories that i and my family will be taking along with us form here only to add one new ones to the whole list...
so untill the shifting actually takes place,its chow from me...

LOOKING THROUGH THE GLASS

well its been a long time..but i already mentioned i am lazy..
wasnt really getting any idea what to write on,thats when my friend told me to look around myself..
i guess we get so engrossed in the rut of the day that we forget to introspect..
it was just a usual day when i got up in the morning..and as usual i moaned on how i had to drive 11 kilometres to get to the hospital every day(thats makes 22 total) little realizing that i had to just sit and give orders there(or "take" most of the time) but there are people who cant manage to make their ends meet and have to make their way throught the scorching heat in the hope of getting relief from their ailments..
i'm currently posted in the pediatrics dept and there is a patient,obviously falling under the below poverty line,suffering from tuberculosis..
he is in a lot of pain..not even mentioning the physical aspect..he cant communicate with us because he doesnt know gujarati,the local language here..his father cant bring him a fruit to eat,let alone paying the medical bill..it was pitiable..and thats the story of many indians..infact many patients in the same ward..why i chose to describe his story,i myself cant figure out...maybe when we were in the round,our madam's sympathetic look forced me to think and write...
"i cried because i didnt have fancy shoes,then i saw someone who did not have feet"
that was line told to me by my senior and i was reminded of that..i felt so ashamed to think of all the times when i made a fuss about the food i was fed more than 3 times a day,whereas afroz(thats the name of the boy) was happy to get a mere morsel even if that meant it was not what he had thought of...
why do we become so full of the things we have that we never ever think what the situation would be like when those things just vanish one day..!!! why do we forget that we are obliged than thousand others who cant even manage to make their ends meet..??why cant we be satisfied and thank GOD for what we have..???
I am not suggesting we stop aspiring high and striving for our goals but yes we can definitely try and make the best possible use of everything,every moment..
I cant promise that i'll be able to help all my pateints financially ,because i hate to make empty ones,but yes i can atleast try...
I did not give any monetary help to afroz(our head of dept had already dont the kind job) but yes everyday when i see him i make it a point to smile at him..and thank him silently for what he made me realise..i know my words wont make any sense to him but atleast my smile can assure him that we all care for him...
I know its difficult to be happy in what we have everytime,(we love to keep our gadgets updated and not to forget the new dress on the mannequin) but we can always keep a magnifying lens to make things look larger than life...
And u dont have to go very far for that lens..just dont let stupid ideas to fog your LENS...

WHEN YOU GET "RINGED"

well i aint talking about the phone bell...
last sunday my two very close friends got engaged (ya u guessed it right!!! its the engagement ring referred to)
so why am i writing about it?? because i am really happy for them...
anuja and dhwanil...2 very close and special friends...all these four years i covered up for them,listened to them,cursed them,laughed with them,felt so elated for them....and its all worht it..
a beautiful couple committing their entire lives and dreams for each other...though i enjoyed a lot at the party,but for the "thinking queen" i am,there were lots of questions racking my mind..(.thats right not brain)
how do u get to know that a person can be your life partner?does God ring a bell for you?or u having auditory halucinations when u see a cute guy/gal staring at you??
wat questions do u ask to yourself before commiting to someone?how do u leave behind 2 decades of your life when u decide to walk down the aisle??
See i told you there are many of them..as a young girl,i used to always think my Mr. perfect would be an army officer..dashing,brave ,intelligent,romantic and understanding...but now as i am a doc, i think a doc would be best for me..still my questions remain unanswered..i still wonder when i meet the right guy how will i recognize him?? will we able to connect to each others past present and future...???
i guess i'll have to wait for these questions to be answered..but in the meanwhile i realised something...that love is purely selfless,totally unconditional and not in the least claustropbobic to your spouse...
So.. people fall in love,enjoy and dont push yourselves too hard to acheive the perfect match..try and make wat u have into a perfect relationship....

HOW GOD SENDS BLESSINGS!!!

well guys these days we interns are going through a tough time...
the whole issue is really weird..after our 12 months of internship we are supposed to give an entrance examination through which we shall be selected for our residency...now since it has been introduced our merit was counted on the basis of 50% aggregate of our 4 years of MBBS marks and 50% entrance tests results...now suddenly our seniors want it to make it 100% since there are many who would be appearing with us(because as usual there is a dearth of seats for residency)
for the obvious selfish motive that we score more than them on the MBBS marks aggregate....
And so we like the rebellious lot we are are trying our level best to fight against it....
no doubt we are getting a good amount of support but it isnt enough...
but thru all these things what i got to know today is that the main person behind this rebel(in our favour) is not even going to appear for this entrance...he will be giving USMLE...
for hours together i kept thinking that whether there was any selfish motive behind this "selfless" help??(being an indian its hard to give up the paranoid attitude)..

but then as always there was something positive inside me saying that this person is standing in the scorching sun fighting for us when it doesnt matter to him at all...and i felt so stupid, childish and selfish when i was whining and complaining about how famished i was...i mean this guy was there day in and out since so many days....!!!!!hats off to him

thats when i thought that good people havent become and extinct species..they do come and come at the right time...and as they say what goes around comes back,i am sure something great will come out of this fight against injustice and definitely in our favour...

At the same time of course my spiritual beliefs where once again strenghthened that GOD does take care of us...and whatever happens will surely take me to the best path in my life....

ME,MYSELF AND MY STORY

hello friends....
Well i know i've sent this link to all the people i know so the people actually taking the pains to read through this crap will be my friends...,but for those who arent as lazy as i am and do enjoy reading blogs,here's a brief introduction to my life....
I am Smita Nair, an intern doctor associated with NHL medical college in ahmedabad(a bubbling under city of INDIA)..and its pretty much the reason i decided to blog...
I did my schooling here and even if by birth i am a keralite(kerala, a state in southern india,has been epithetised as "god's own country")i've never or rather my friends have never let me feel that i am an non gujarati(gujarat,that's where ahmedabad is)
So after schooling i was almost determined upto to 99% that i would go into engineering..but then suddenly something melodramatically changed my decision...my grandpa's laryngeal cancer...
So i entered into the big bad world of medicine..and i have enjoyed it thoroughly;be it the thick or the thins..
Something about me....well to describe me i guess the best person are my closest friends amrita and neha...and i am sure they wouldnt say anything less than this....a happy go lucky ambitious,talented,sensitive VIRGO who is meticulous enough but at times she gets all egoistic and fussy...and they also wouldnt forget to mention my stubborn nature..
Thats enough of self praise i guess...
I'd also like to tell all about my dreamwishes,(many to mention) which i might happen to during the entire process of blogging...
So people i hope u have fun reading my blogs...