LOOKING THROUGH THE GLASS

well its been a long time..but i already mentioned i am lazy..
wasnt really getting any idea what to write on,thats when my friend told me to look around myself..
i guess we get so engrossed in the rut of the day that we forget to introspect..
it was just a usual day when i got up in the morning..and as usual i moaned on how i had to drive 11 kilometres to get to the hospital every day(thats makes 22 total) little realizing that i had to just sit and give orders there(or "take" most of the time) but there are people who cant manage to make their ends meet and have to make their way throught the scorching heat in the hope of getting relief from their ailments..
i'm currently posted in the pediatrics dept and there is a patient,obviously falling under the below poverty line,suffering from tuberculosis..
he is in a lot of pain..not even mentioning the physical aspect..he cant communicate with us because he doesnt know gujarati,the local language here..his father cant bring him a fruit to eat,let alone paying the medical bill..it was pitiable..and thats the story of many indians..infact many patients in the same ward..why i chose to describe his story,i myself cant figure out...maybe when we were in the round,our madam's sympathetic look forced me to think and write...
"i cried because i didnt have fancy shoes,then i saw someone who did not have feet"
that was line told to me by my senior and i was reminded of that..i felt so ashamed to think of all the times when i made a fuss about the food i was fed more than 3 times a day,whereas afroz(thats the name of the boy) was happy to get a mere morsel even if that meant it was not what he had thought of...
why do we become so full of the things we have that we never ever think what the situation would be like when those things just vanish one day..!!! why do we forget that we are obliged than thousand others who cant even manage to make their ends meet..??why cant we be satisfied and thank GOD for what we have..???
I am not suggesting we stop aspiring high and striving for our goals but yes we can definitely try and make the best possible use of everything,every moment..
I cant promise that i'll be able to help all my pateints financially ,because i hate to make empty ones,but yes i can atleast try...
I did not give any monetary help to afroz(our head of dept had already dont the kind job) but yes everyday when i see him i make it a point to smile at him..and thank him silently for what he made me realise..i know my words wont make any sense to him but atleast my smile can assure him that we all care for him...
I know its difficult to be happy in what we have everytime,(we love to keep our gadgets updated and not to forget the new dress on the mannequin) but we can always keep a magnifying lens to make things look larger than life...
And u dont have to go very far for that lens..just dont let stupid ideas to fog your LENS...

WHEN YOU GET "RINGED"

well i aint talking about the phone bell...
last sunday my two very close friends got engaged (ya u guessed it right!!! its the engagement ring referred to)
so why am i writing about it?? because i am really happy for them...
anuja and dhwanil...2 very close and special friends...all these four years i covered up for them,listened to them,cursed them,laughed with them,felt so elated for them....and its all worht it..
a beautiful couple committing their entire lives and dreams for each other...though i enjoyed a lot at the party,but for the "thinking queen" i am,there were lots of questions racking my mind..(.thats right not brain)
how do u get to know that a person can be your life partner?does God ring a bell for you?or u having auditory halucinations when u see a cute guy/gal staring at you??
wat questions do u ask to yourself before commiting to someone?how do u leave behind 2 decades of your life when u decide to walk down the aisle??
See i told you there are many of them..as a young girl,i used to always think my Mr. perfect would be an army officer..dashing,brave ,intelligent,romantic and understanding...but now as i am a doc, i think a doc would be best for me..still my questions remain unanswered..i still wonder when i meet the right guy how will i recognize him?? will we able to connect to each others past present and future...???
i guess i'll have to wait for these questions to be answered..but in the meanwhile i realised something...that love is purely selfless,totally unconditional and not in the least claustropbobic to your spouse...
So.. people fall in love,enjoy and dont push yourselves too hard to acheive the perfect match..try and make wat u have into a perfect relationship....